I am the monster lurking on the hillside, chased by something even more terrible. I am watching myself be the terrified monster. I am the mirror that sees clearly but refuses the truth. I am the shadow behind thin curtains at night, lenient light from an unseen source playing on the softly undulating folds, imagining essences, routinely absurd. I am the reality harassing works of art, browbeating them into mere signs.
If only I were the beauty in the things I see and touch and hear and smell and want. I am what’s left of my sense of humor.
Originally published on Hijacked Amygdala.